MOM'S DAY 2016

Mother's Day this year was a sweet yet difficult one at the same time. 

I have a special appreciation in my heart now, on this day, for those moms who have lost babies or are desperately wanting to be mommas and haven't yet been given the privilege. 

It was such a sweet day to be grateful for my precious little boy, Harvest- to remember what an amazing gift he is and to soak up the joy that he brings to our lives. Yet, at the same time, my heart was mourning the loss of our other two baby girls to miscarriage. 

In order to commemorate their lives and also to, in our own way, say an official goodbye, we decided to release some balloons for each of them on Mother's Day. I had been searching for some way to be able to release them, of sorts. I didn't get to see either of their little bodies in person- the way that would have made most sense to me to say goodbye- so I felt like this was a really sweet way to try to find some closure and to symbolically release them to heaven. 

Before we let the balloons float away, we explained it to Harv by saying that we were going to send them up to heaven to his little sisters, Mabel and Debbie, because that's where they are with Jesus and because we love and miss them so much. 

We let them fly away, teary-eyed, yet with smile on our faces, waving and saying "Goodbye Baby Mable and Little Deb. We love you guys so much and can't wait to see you again one day,"

My heart feels a little more healed and a little more normal every day. 

I'm thanking the Lord that He made me a momma this Mother's Day, and am reminding myself of His comfort, goodness and grace in this less-than-perfect world while looking forward to an eternity surrounded by His perfection.