Here's what our kitchen chalkboard is looking like these days (yes we're referring to our baby as squishy face :))... It's a constant reminder of how close and how real our baby boy is!
Lately, I think I'm struck with the reality that we will, FOR REAL, have a third person in our family in just a couple weeks. That this baby is actually happening and will be here soon! And I'm just amazed at the whole thing and am feeling overly blessed.
Not only did I get pregnant to start with, but I've also carried a healthy baby- by all foreseeable accounts- for almost 9 months and in a few short days he will be here in our arms, kicking and screaming and cooing and being adorable and adding so many extra blessings to our lives.
I take baths a lot these days... my legs might not call carrying around an extra 35 pounds every day a "blessing." They complain a lot. But what do they know, they're just legs! It's my heart that knows my aching legs are just another reminder of our sweet boy's life. My favorite part of baths is just laying there still with this big baby belly sticking out of the water and watching him poke me and wiggle around. I could literally stare at my stomach for hours. I love trying to guess whether it's his little foot or knee that's kicking me or if he stretching or rolling or just kicking for the fun of it. I feel like from watching his movements I already have an idea of his personality and we haven't even met him yet. My call is strong (aka stubborn), yet a little shy and lots of sensitive. We will see if momma's right :)
Do you ever just stop to think about how wonderful something in your life is? And you end up focusing on the details that brought you there and all the sweet little pieces that have come together to create this beautiful thing that you get to call your own? Marriage is one of those things for me... and now this baby.
I feel very, crazy, incredibly blessed. To the point where I don't even deserve to have all of these amazing gifts. And the truth is that I really don't deserve them- in the very best way.
It was 3 years of drama and emotion and road trips and break ups and back togethers that finally led to a proposal and 2 years of happy marriage for Ben and I. So many pieces had to come together, so many lessons were learned and plenty of tears were shed, but I wouldn't have it any other way, because it got us to where we are today. And did I do anything to deserve this amazing husband who loves and cares for me so well? Not at all. Actually, I screwed a lot of things up and acted like a high school girl and we don't need to go into details on all that... But the point is that it was 100% the Lord's orchestration and blessing on our lives that has brought us to this beautiful place we're at today. And I'm so thankful.
The same goes for our baby boy. He's a product of a gracious God who lovingly gives us good things and delights in the joy of His children. And I just can't help but feel crazy overwhelmed and grateful and undeserving of this gift that He has chosen to give Ben and I.
It reminds me of James 1:17.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of Heavenly lights.
And it's so true, isn't it? Maybe we can all take some time to consider all of our good and perfect gifts that He's blessed us with (from meals on the table to families who love us to fresh flowers around our homes and everything in between) and practice having hearts and eyes that look up to Him and say "Wow. thank you so much. You didn't have to give me this gift, but I'm so glad you did."
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