My birthday weekend!

Today we are "snowed in" in Charleston! Crazy right? Check out this palm tree outside our window... Or what once was a palm tree anyway.

Now that I post it, the picture is looking mostly like rain, but I swear it's ice!

Sooo instead of nannying this morning I am sitting on my couch in my sweats and writing about my birthday weekend :)

My hunnie spoiled me for my birthday, that's for sure. He took me shopping at Target with Starbucks in hand, followed by a surprise pastry cooking demonstration, sushi, a giant cupcake and movie/cuddle time on the couch. He's very good at loving me and making me feel special. :)

I'm weird about birthdays... I love to celebrate and go over the top for everybody else (I even have a special birthday song that I 'wrote' and sing for all my friends on their special day), but I feel shy and like I don't deserve the attention when others want to give it to me. Maybe that's just my personality, but it doesn't make a lot of sense.

I think the real issue for me is that I can easily appreciate the good and the praiseworthy in others, but it's harder for me to believe about myself. It's a self-worth thing, ya know? And we all struggle with this in some way. I have a hard time accepting blessings from others and specific attention because I don't truly believe I'm worth it. 

Someone else may have a hard time receiving compliments because they don't see what everyone else sees and don't believe they are as beautiful as they are. My husband and I have been watching What Not to Wear on Netflix (every episode) and it's usually the same story- women stop trying to look beautiful because they don't believe they are beautiful. But they ALWAYS are! 

I think the same applies for me when it comes to birthdays and the like. But I want to have a healthier balance of accepting blessings from others. Having a birthday every year makes for a good chance to practice. Ha. And I know that letting others be a blessing is also a blessing for them- because they get to bless. Heck, that's half of what I'm always venting about on this blog!

So, we went from ice covered palms to pastries and sushi to a serious self-worth talk. This post turned out to be not as fluffy as it seemed. Sorry about that! But it is important, right? What about you? Are there areas in you that struggle to believe your worth? Try watching What Not to Wear and put yourself in their shoes. Remind yourself what it is about you that's worth singing about and celebrating. And I will too. :)